A friend of mine suggested that I write about the positive side to having emotional extremes. I spent a while wondering why this had never occurred to me before as something to do and there are two reasons. The first is that positive feelings don't leave us feeling isolated and scared like the negative ones … Continue reading THE ADDICTION OF EUPHORIA
I meant to write this evening about the positive side to having emotional extremes but there is something else that I feel is more urgent and more important. I hurt someone that I care deeply about yesterday. Someone that I care about more than I perhaps realised until today, and who perhaps cares about me … Continue reading TRUTH: I WILL NEVER DO IT.
My chest aches. This physiological response to anxiety and panic is now becoming more than I can endure and the pain is too much, both mentally and physically. I cannot put my finger on what I am panicking about in this particular instance, perhaps it is a culmination of everything that has happened because all … Continue reading I HAVE TO GO.
I've lived with chronic suicidal ideation for so long that I can't really remember what it feels like to not live with it. Sometimes I think about ways to actually end my life, other times I think about just never having existed, or disappearing in a way that erases all trace and memory of me. … Continue reading SUICIDAL IDEATION SAVES ME. FOR NOW.
I’m 35 years old. I can’t remember living without a mental health illness of some sort crippling my life. As a child, anxiety manifested itself into anorexia, and in turn OCD, and in turn profound depression. I have battled my way through addiction, low self-esteem, social anxiety, general anxiety, that overwhelming sense of doom that … Continue reading ON POSTNATAL DEPRESSION
I'm unsure just how long Twitter has been on the scene, but my guess is approximately a decade. In that time, I never once considered signing up under the mistaken belief that it was nothing more than a platform for famous people to air their thoughts in 140 characters, and for lesser mortals to follow … Continue reading MY TWITTER ARC OF INSANITY
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about social constructs that many seem to take for granted and live by, and even more about how people who don’t want to live by them are frowned at. Like the conventional relationship set up of two people committing to each other exclusively for life, and the conventional career … Continue reading WHAT’S WITH THE SOCIAL CONSTRUCTS?